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Big Changes

Forget The Risk

Big changes are coming. And they’re coming FAST. I am sorry to have abandoned my little place on the internet for quite some time — but my head and my heart were in a million different places at once and I found it hard to dedicate my time to anything at all — even the stuff I had to do.

Big change number one? I quit my job. You know, the one I was absolutely miserable at. Roughly 3.5 weeks ago I was at work and day-dreaming about typing up my 2 week notice when suddenly I found myself doing just that. I made it 3 weeks, since I would be gone for the middle week for Thanksgiving, handed in my notice, and immediately felt a sense of relief. Short lived, of course, as the consequences of my actions came swooping in — YOU HAVE NO JOB. NO PLAN! Unless I’m shopping, I am not a very impulsive person. I think (and think and think and think) things through (way too much) but this — it just happened.

Big change number two? I am leaving Charlotte, NC. The place I’ve come to call home in the past year. In fact, I’m leaving North Carolina all together, my home for the past four+ years, to move back in with my parents in Virginia (outside of D.C.). (gulp) It sucks to even admit that! But it will really be the best thing for me, not paying rent and trying to figure out the rest of my life. It’s no secret I have spent the last year or so in a constant state of “1/3 of life” crisis (1/4 sounds terrible, I don’t know if I want to live until I’m 100!)..

So what does big change number two really mean? It means I’m leaving Jordan, my boyfriend of nearly 2 years. This is no easy feat. And I know what you’re thinking — hello, long distance! But 7.5 hours is a LONG distance. It will be several more years before I finish college and grad-school, which means several years of long-distance. While he is completely supportive of me doing what I need to do for my future, it is a very bittersweet time because it basically means the end for us. As I said, bittersweet. But sometimes we need to make decisions in life that are bittersweet in order to better our own lives.

So, in a nutshell there are only two big life changes, but they are prettyyy big, and contain many smaller life changes within them. I have experienced great anxiety in this time and am looking forward to the future — when I can breath and know and see that this is the right thing for me to do.

On to new adventures, right?

First Steps

(both images from here)

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Asheville Adventure I

I spent the past weekend in a cabin just outside of Asheville, NC on a river with Jordan and a couple we are good friends with. The cabin was wonderful, perfectly located right on the French Broad River in the mountains. The weather was wonderful, Saturday it was about 65 and sunny — we spent the day with no agenda, sleeping in, making breakfast, throwing a frisbee on the lawn, trekking through the shrubs alongside the river, sipping “adult” beverages. We even tried to walk back with our feet in the water but it was just too cold — my feet instantly hurt from the chill! We played card games and scategories and had too much to drink, smoking hookah and sitting in the hot tub, talking, laughing, dancing.

Sunday we had to check out by 10am, and lucky for us it was day-light savings, so we savored that extra hour in bed and were able to leave by 9:30 and head to downtown Asheville. We ate breakfast at Tupelo Honey Cafe (the biscuits! and the goat cheese grits!) and wandered into the shops and boutiques until we eventually met up with other friends at Lexington Avenue Brewery for snacks and a beer. I dreaded the drive back to Charlotte — I adore Asheville and all her secrets I’ve yet to discover. The food, the vibe, the shopping — if the opportunity knocked tomorrow I’d pick up and move there without hesitation.

And lucky for me I’m returning next weekend! Way before the weekend cabin trip was planned, a girlfriend of mine (who is very near and dear to my heart, we worked together at Maxie B’s in Greensboro and she remains a super important person in my life) and I decided to spend the weekend together in Asheville. We are going to visit The Biltmore (Christmas decorations will be up!) and eat at Early Girl Eatery and walk the streets and visit the shops and enjoy each others company. I have another friend (with the same name!) who lives in Asheville and we are going to meet up with her as well.

I am looking forward to a weekend with just my friends, my girl friends. It will be so refreshing for my soul. I miss all of my friends as they all live in different cities. Emily and Kellie in Greensboro, Marianne in Brooklyn, Megan in Arlington… and I’m here in Charlotte. Separated by so much distance but still so close in my heart.

Weekend Night Cap

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01. Beer list at Clips of Faith / 02. Vibrant colors after the rain / 03. Kobe on one of our Sunday walks

Is it just me or are the weekends never long enough?

This weekend was absolutely lovely. Friday night we went to an event at Independence Park — New Belgium Brewing’s Clips of Faith. We tried awesome beers (my favorites included Cocoa Mole, Super IPA, and Red Hoptober — but I didn’t get to try them all) and got to watch some short independent films while sitting on the lawn. We brought Kobe with us and he loved it.

Saturday we took Kobe to the dog park early in the morning and it was so beautiful out we decided to call some friends to meet us out there. We spent the better half of the day outside tossing the football, playing with the dogs, and listening to music. After all that sun and some beers I was quite tired so we ended up lounging around that evening.

Sunday was chilly and rainy so we spent most of the day inside watching football. Jordan made us breakfast and I took Kobe on several walks. Then we cuddled up and watched the 2 hour season finale of my favorite show, Hell On Wheels! Lily better not be dead! I’m ready for the new season now, thanks!

Friday!

Lake Wylie sky

Happy Friday, friends!
Do you have any plans this weekend?

I have nothing particular in mind except that I plan to spend as much time away from the condo as possible. I’m thinking a morning trip to Crowder’s Mountain, a visit or two to Barnes & Noble, several trips to the dog park, and maybe an evening picnic to the park with a good book and a blanket.

Ciao! xo

What Am I Doing?

breaking

life

I’ve hit another wall. I’m not sure how else to explain it other than I just don’t know what to do with my life. I have so many ideas, so many different little dreams, but which of these dreams is realistic? Which do I go with? Am I crazy for dreaming some silly little things for myself? How do I know which direction to go in?

I am so grateful for Jordan. As I sat on the couch last night blurting out all these random things and “I don’t know’s” — tears building in my eyes — he came next to me, put his arm around me, and said I could do anything, and none of them sounded silly, I should do what I dream of. And in typical Jordan fashion he cracked a little joke to make me smile and forget it all…

Oh, life… I’ll figure you out one day, won’t I?

Can’t I Call In Sick??

Comfy Cozy
Doesn’t this bed look dreamy (source)

MHL by Margaret Howell Striped Jumper
$248.00 from Steven Alan

As I sip my dirty chai this morning from my office I wish so badly I could be back home, snuggled in bed with my sweet little pup, wearing this comfy looking sweater that I’m currently obsessing over. Too bad it’s more than my car insurance (which is pretttyy high up there with a brand new car).