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Big Changes

Forget The Risk

Big changes are coming. And they’re coming FAST. I am sorry to have abandoned my little place on the internet for quite some time — but my head and my heart were in a million different places at once and I found it hard to dedicate my time to anything at all — even the stuff I had to do.

Big change number one? I quit my job. You know, the one I was absolutely miserable at. Roughly 3.5 weeks ago I was at work and day-dreaming about typing up my 2 week notice when suddenly I found myself doing just that. I made it 3 weeks, since I would be gone for the middle week for Thanksgiving, handed in my notice, and immediately felt a sense of relief. Short lived, of course, as the consequences of my actions came swooping in — YOU HAVE NO JOB. NO PLAN! Unless I’m shopping, I am not a very impulsive person. I think (and think and think and think) things through (way too much) but this — it just happened.

Big change number two? I am leaving Charlotte, NC. The place I’ve come to call home in the past year. In fact, I’m leaving North Carolina all together, my home for the past four+ years, to move back in with my parents in Virginia (outside of D.C.). (gulp) It sucks to even admit that! But it will really be the best thing for me, not paying rent and trying to figure out the rest of my life. It’s no secret I have spent the last year or so in a constant state of “1/3 of life” crisis (1/4 sounds terrible, I don’t know if I want to live until I’m 100!)..

So what does big change number two really mean? It means I’m leaving Jordan, my boyfriend of nearly 2 years. This is no easy feat. And I know what you’re thinking — hello, long distance! But 7.5 hours is a LONG distance. It will be several more years before I finish college and grad-school, which means several years of long-distance. While he is completely supportive of me doing what I need to do for my future, it is a very bittersweet time because it basically means the end for us. As I said, bittersweet. But sometimes we need to make decisions in life that are bittersweet in order to better our own lives.

So, in a nutshell there are only two big life changes, but they are prettyyy big, and contain many smaller life changes within them. I have experienced great anxiety in this time and am looking forward to the future — when I can breath and know and see that this is the right thing for me to do.

On to new adventures, right?

First Steps

(both images from here)


Asheville Adventure I

I spent the past weekend in a cabin just outside of Asheville, NC on a river with Jordan and a couple we are good friends with. The cabin was wonderful, perfectly located right on the French Broad River in the mountains. The weather was wonderful, Saturday it was about 65 and sunny — we spent the day with no agenda, sleeping in, making breakfast, throwing a frisbee on the lawn, trekking through the shrubs alongside the river, sipping “adult” beverages. We even tried to walk back with our feet in the water but it was just too cold — my feet instantly hurt from the chill! We played card games and scategories and had too much to drink, smoking hookah and sitting in the hot tub, talking, laughing, dancing.

Sunday we had to check out by 10am, and lucky for us it was day-light savings, so we savored that extra hour in bed and were able to leave by 9:30 and head to downtown Asheville. We ate breakfast at Tupelo Honey Cafe (the biscuits! and the goat cheese grits!) and wandered into the shops and boutiques until we eventually met up with other friends at Lexington Avenue Brewery for snacks and a beer. I dreaded the drive back to Charlotte — I adore Asheville and all her secrets I’ve yet to discover. The food, the vibe, the shopping — if the opportunity knocked tomorrow I’d pick up and move there without hesitation.

And lucky for me I’m returning next weekend! Way before the weekend cabin trip was planned, a girlfriend of mine (who is very near and dear to my heart, we worked together at Maxie B’s in Greensboro and she remains a super important person in my life) and I decided to spend the weekend together in Asheville. We are going to visit The Biltmore (Christmas decorations will be up!) and eat at Early Girl Eatery and walk the streets and visit the shops and enjoy each others company. I have another friend (with the same name!) who lives in Asheville and we are going to meet up with her as well.

I am looking forward to a weekend with just my friends, my girl friends. It will be so refreshing for my soul. I miss all of my friends as they all live in different cities. Emily and Kellie in Greensboro, Marianne in Brooklyn, Megan in Arlington… and I’m here in Charlotte. Separated by so much distance but still so close in my heart.


Lake Wylie sky

Happy Friday, friends!
Do you have any plans this weekend?

I have nothing particular in mind except that I plan to spend as much time away from the condo as possible. I’m thinking a morning trip to Crowder’s Mountain, a visit or two to Barnes & Noble, several trips to the dog park, and maybe an evening picnic to the park with a good book and a blanket.

Ciao! xo

What Am I Doing?



I’ve hit another wall. I’m not sure how else to explain it other than I just don’t know what to do with my life. I have so many ideas, so many different little dreams, but which of these dreams is realistic? Which do I go with? Am I crazy for dreaming some silly little things for myself? How do I know which direction to go in?

I am so grateful for Jordan. As I sat on the couch last night blurting out all these random things and “I don’t know’s” — tears building in my eyes — he came next to me, put his arm around me, and said I could do anything, and none of them sounded silly, I should do what I dream of. And in typical Jordan fashion he cracked a little joke to make me smile and forget it all…

Oh, life… I’ll figure you out one day, won’t I?

Time Is Precious

I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired of my “boring” life. I feel as though I’m constantly saying (read: complaining) about how mundane I find my life, that I’m just going through the motions: sleep, get ready, work, come home, eat dinner, watch tv, repeat. And on the weekends? I’m lazy and I sit around after completing a few chores, watching movies and tv shows with my boyfriend (who’s perfectly happy to lay around and do nothing.) So, who’s to blame for my mundane and pathetically boring life? ME.

Laziness breeds laziness, just as productivity breeds productivity — and I LOVE being productive, I LOVE being busy. Even my boss announced today that I work best under pressure! It feels so good to spend every minute of my time productively — and the only person stopping me from living life this way is me! I make the decision to come home from work and sit on the couch (because I’m so sick of my job, pitty me, I must sit and “relax” from my boring life). I make the decision to order food because I’m too lazy and tired of my boring life to go to the grocery store and cook something delicious for myself. I make the decision to spend my weekend cooped up inside watching TV on the couch or even in bed. These are all decisions I make for myself. And it’s time for a change.

Our time on Earth is precious, waking up every morning and growing older is a privledge denied to many and I refuse to sit around and convince myself that my life is boring and mundane and it’s all the universes fault because I wasn’t granted the life of a celebrity, or anyone else. I don’t have to sit around and have a lazy, boring life. Granted I can’t afford some luxuries like tropical and exotic vacations, however there is plenty I can do to keep busy and feel productive, useful, and happy.

No longer will I lay in bed until the very last minute in the mornings, dreading getting out of bed. No longer will I come home from my boring job and slump into the couch. No longer will I spend my weekends cooped up inside. I’m 24. I need to be living my life. I may not be able to afford much, but that doesn’t mean I can’t do anything. Today Kobe and I went on a 3.25 walk and it felt SO good. I did the dishes and tidied the living room and even ran a load of laundry. And now? Now it feels GOOD to sit and type this up as I enjoy my smoothie for dinner, in my Jordan’s clean condo.

I’m tired of my boring mundane life and I refuse to allow myself to live that way.

Healthy Happy Habits

My last post was rather depressing, but something on my mind none-the-less. As noted, I have struggled with my apperance, more so my perception of my appearance, for a very long time. As sad as it is to admit, I’ve found journals from elementary school with statements such as “I’m fat” and “I’m ugly” in them. How absolutely rotten to know that a little girl (a little me) feels that way about herself. It has driven me to become passionate about making sure all little girls are told they’re beautiful and it’s also driven me to study nutrition and dietetics. I really hope that when I finish my degree I can work with young girls and boys and teach them the importance of having a healthy relationship with food and exercise.

Sparked by my recent bout of negativity towards myself, I’ve realized that while I’ve been eating okay, I certainly haven’t been eating great — and that is a huge part of what makes me feel good about myself. Because I haven’t been in school for nearly 2 years working towards my degree, it’s safe to say I’ve slacked a little on my own personal nutrition habits. I go through periods of serious health followed by serious slacking. I want my serious health to stick for good this time.

I recently started making smoothies for my boyfriend and I to enjoy for breakfast every morning. I typically mix strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, and bananas with unsweetened vanilla almond milk, vanilla greek yogurt, protein powder, and spinach — really delicious. This morning I tried mangos, pineapples, and bananas with unsweetened vanilla almond milk, vanilla greek yogurt, protein powder, and kale — equally delicious (and more summery!). I’m going to keep playing with smootie concoctions and add more vegetables to them so they include even more nutrients. Jordan is even going to buy me a fancy new blender this weekend with his monthly bonus check.

Another big thing I always slack on? Water consumption. I absolutely hate unfiltered water (I’m such a snob, I know!) but it’s what I grew up with and I just can’t do it any other way. At work the water is awful, I was making it tolerable with lemons but even that required about half a lemon each glass. I keep meaning to purchase this Mio water enhancer, I think it would really help. I recently started making caffiene-free iced-tea in large batches so that I have something available quickly. My mom makes a great iced green-tea with fresh ginger that I’m going to try making on my own this weekend. It’s so refreshing in the hot Summer months and fresh ginger has great antioxident powers along with the green tea.

A few other feel-good habits I’m going to work on sticking to along with breakfast smoothies & water consumption:

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